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okay, so this won't be interesting, whatsoever, i just need to get this out of my system.

my "best friend" is so angry at me, for no reason at all. all during the school holidays, we were best friends, we were pretty much inseperable. but now, once we are back at school, she has been ignoring me and being super bitchy. i just don't know if i can be fucked dealing with another fucking bitchy friend.

and then, there is this guy that i think i could reallllllyyyyy like if i got to know him again. we used to know each other about a year ago and got along pretty well, but then i changed schools and we didnt stay in touch. we ran into each other the other day and he looked really good, so i decided to facebook stalk him. and he is just cute and i get along with him, and that makes me kind of happy.

these last couple of days, though, i have been extremely nostalgic. it started when i saw this young guy's picture on the news. he had actually killed himself and he really looked like ross, one of the first guys i fell for. and he used to feel that way, and i started imagining what i would feel like if it had really been him, and that made me nostalgic. but thinking about ross made me start thinking about my real first love, chris. chris was this guy who i totally fell for, but i didnt know that at the time. it ended up being fucked anyway, and i didnt realise how i really felt about him until we had stopped talking.

last night, i was reading through old myspace comments we had left each other and it made me wish that i was still in contact with him. but on the previous occassions that i have tried to get back into contact with him, it has gone really badly. but i sent him a message last night and now i cant stop thinking about him. it is driving me fucking crazy.

i really dont like this at all.

sdvfjvbfdi

arghh omz everything seems to be going really good in life atm.
i'm just waiting for everything to come crashing down.

it scares the hell out of me to think like that.

but srsly, everything is epically amazing atm.
soundwave was announced a while ago and i have tickets.
which means i get to see my chemical romance, my all time favourite band, again.
not to mention paramore, all time low, escape the fate, taking back sunday, a day to remember, four year strong, emarosa, you me at six and the almost.
should be the be so far, and there is still more to be announced.

should i be lovely and update?
sorry, i can't.
i will most definitely do one tomorrow, though.

have you read the vampire academy series?
if you haven't, go do so now.
but if you have, go listen to unusual you by britney spears.
i think of it as a very rose to dimitri thing :)

star trekkin across the universeee!
only going forward because we find reverse!

only a shortt update today :)

okay, so i did like a double shift at work today and i had to do like two parties this morning (i work at mcdonalds) which was actually pretty fun.
and then i had my original shift tonight and the guy i have a little crush on was there so i was happy :)

Currently Brand New Eyes By Paramore see related

farkkk, i haven't been on here in foreverr.
oh well, im here now, ain't that right bubba?
its coz im like totally fucking amazzzinnggg!
ANYWHO, on with the show!!

^^ one of the loves of my life.
i see her in feb and i cant fucking wait!
will be well amazingg (Y)

well, that was fun but i must dashh now.
lol its like 3.30am and i have to be up at 9.30 for work >.<
why did i say yes to doing a double shift again?!

it's been a while...

So, it's been a while since I have written in this.
I just feel like I need to write all this stuff down because if I don't then surely I will explode at an extremely inappropriate time.
Like in front of Steph.
And that would be very bad.

I turn 16 on Wednesday.
I was excited before, but right now, my mood has gone down hill.
I got my presents already.

I go to Tamworth on Friday.
That is where I used to live.
I haven't been back in a few years, so that should be painful.

I wish I could get this guy out of my head.
He is so effin annoying!
In every single way.
So, I have no idea why I like him.
He throws food at me, for pete's sake!
He's so frustrating and so damn bothersome!
Ughh, and immature!

But then he's really cute, and funny.
And he can be nice.

But then he has a girlfriend.

But then he flirts with me!

It's all so ridiculous!
I'm well and truly sick of it, and yet, I still go on talking about the matter.

He turned 17 last Tuesday.

Okay, anyone reading this, please give me advice.

When a guy throws things at you, and then walks around the other side of the table to face you and various other things like that, does that mean he is flirting?
I am not good with this shit.
But then he can't be flirting because he hasn't talked to me in like a whole fucking week even though we sit like less than a metre away from each other on our breaks.

And that isn't even the worst thing about the whole situation!
One of my best friends (who I only met almost 2 months ago now) supposedly likes him as well.
But then she likes his best fucking friend.
I don't understand how someone can like more than one person at one time.
It takes me months upon months to get over just one crush.

It is all so senseless.

I have been listening to a fair bit of Say Anything as of late.
Witty as hell.
And Max is amazinggg.
His voice and the way it fits around the lyrics of these beatuiful songs is purely epic.
Admit it! and I am a Transylvanian are what are stuck on the Pod atm.
Sweet guys too.
"How many carats is that necklace you have on?"
"Uhh, I have no idea..."
"I'd say it would be about 15 carats."
"Oh, that is a 58 carat diamond."
"I prefer peas to carrots."
It was a plastic necklace.
I guess it was just one of those things that you just had to be there.

I officially hate men.
No, not just them, that isn't broad enough.
The entire human race.